and that is something I’ve been realizing over and over again: I have to do things for myself – for my own reasons, so I will be content – and not just to make other people happy. The case in point right now is my little journey into obstetrics and toying with the possibility of changing career plans. My biggest drive for considering the change and for seriously thinking about OB/GYN was that someone else thought it would be a good idea. And that someone was very persistent, and very complimentary, and telling her that I was considering OB made her happy – which in turn made me happy. So the thought of actually becoming an OB/GYN doctor was never really something that sparked a fire under me. But the thought of someone liking me, encouraging me, being happy because of something I was doing – that did spark a fire. 🙂 Today I’m going to my continuity clinic at Cardinal Glennon – and I will tell you that seeing all the kids there and being their "doctor", that really gets me and that is really what I want to do. Even if I do have a knack for surgery, being in the OR doesn’t excite me, not enough to make a career out of it. It’s just hard to tell that to someone who obviously is excited by the OR… This entry is a bit discombobulated, sorry for that. I’ve got my OB/GYN final exam next week then I move on to Psych (and hopefully a little more sleep). I am tired.